To find my mum’s affection
write to her
her speech is –
but what if
you have to
it must be
it has to be
(to a description of my reality
or a fact)
(to a suggestion for a new way of doing things)
and sometimes she’ll just
completely ignore you
if she’s Busy Thinking.
Now… what if she’s emailing?
I found “Dear ______,”
“I would like”
Wow, there was even a
Her handwriting irritates me – that scratchy sound
of anxiety – whether in biro or Very Worried marker
oven 200’c, 20 minutes, David takes 2 sugar, electrician 9:30am
is walled with mum’s notes
you might find – in very old letters and postcards
a far care-freer, fun-filled breeze
and when I was a child, she gave me a
bath and we sang a song about a fish that got away
once- Loooooong ago, a little
time to relax
I read this poem to my mum! Tentatively.
She responded by repeating aspects of my poem and changing the words to be about me. Then I encouraged her to write a poem, which she did! Some of her friends have self-published poetry and she has always loved literature. I think that’s why she wanted me to study English Lit.