If no one cares, really,
No one else to please,
Taste fun and mystery.
I often find I am stuck between wanting to make something of a really high quality and to have that recognised. In a tangible way, that means people will comment and say they like it, or it will affect people in a positive way. On the other hand, the pressure to achieve this type of “successful” outcome often makes it feel difficult to get started.
- “Is it the right thing to do right now?” (Relevance)
- “Am I going to get the tone right?” (Suitability)
- “How does this fit with what I have done so far?” (Consistency)
- “Does anyone care if I make anything?” (Self doubt, questioning, the fear of futility)
There are more, but I’ll save them for another post!
Then on some days, I am reminded that I currently have a small niche audience, and some of them are just way too busy to scan the horizon for my every post, so even if I do release something it’s probably going to be a while before anyone says anything, and if that’s the case, I should just go ahead and make whatever, because a great part of creativity is pleasing oneself (aka self amusement/living in a creative moment of one’s choosing)).